Current location:	Quezon City, Phil.
Current mood:	Life.
Current music:	The Climb - Miley Cyrus

Water.
 Hey. Long time, eh? The last entry wasn't even a really decent one. Oh well.

I've been...uh... I dunno really. Busy? Not since the end of May. Well, sort of. Distracted? Well, yeah.

A lot of things have happened since my last post. I never saw the dog again. I bonded with the SSIPeople who work onmy side of UP (Science Complex) at the CS Caf. The MSI people finished their time. The Engineering people finished their time. Lunch time people dropped from people in the Science Complex to just me and Jana. In the end, I extended mine. I wanted to finish the damn thing. 

Don't get me wrong; I loved my job in NIGS. Just like I love using strong words of profanity. 

So, yeah. For now, I have tons of things piled up. I have to finish my SSIP portfolio, an Abstract for Dr. Alampay, my MATH homework for a school year that hasn't even started yet, an STR homework with the same situation, and I haven't even bought notebooks for the next school year. I'm not prepared at all for the coming year. Oh, I also have that Filipino Math and General Knowledge homework from Eager Learner Review. 

So, that's my life for the moment. One big mess. It's like this whirlpool;  all that water and debris, and all you can do is just suck it up an live with it. One big mess, things just thrown in and mixed up and it all just ends up like that. 

Or worse.

So there. But wait, there's more! Let's take that watery metaphor to another level. Water, left alone, has great freedom. It puddles. It flows. It mixes. Hell, it evaporates. With such freedom, it has a lot of power. Potential power. But there is only one way to show, to make use, to harness such power. 

It has to be manipulated. It has to be controlled. It has to be directed.

Right now, I feel like water. I've already told you one part; about being like a whirlpool, being a mix. Now I tell you the other part.

I feel afraid and scared right now because of two things; fourth year and college. Fourth year's another story, maybe more on that later. College scares me NOW because the college entrance exams are DURING the school year. And a major part of applying for college is choosing your course. And for us scholars, that has to be a Bachelor of Science course if you don't want a breach of contract.

For me, that's where the problem starts.

My parents gave me ABSOLUTE freedom to choose which course to take. I'm really thankful to my mom and dad for the (relative) freedom I have, and I appreciate it really, but sometimes it can get confusing. And contradicting. You can do anything you want, yet you don't know exactly what to do. And the moment you are pushed to do something, you rebel and hate it, getting used to being free and doing thing you chose to do. 

You have to find the right balance of interest and future. You don't have to be filthy rich. As long as it makes you comfortable. 

My mom said that, more or less verbatim. Through YM, of course (Yeah, they're updated like that. Heh.). Honestly, I agree. Personally, I know that already, way before she told me. I don't have to have a future sleeping on bags of money and with furniture made of white, yellow, or rose gold (my choice). As long as I feel comfortable with what I can attain and that I feel satisfied and fulfilled, it's okay. 

The BIG problem is, I don't know what to choose. Right now, I'm defaulting BSChem (and no, NOT ChemEng). But I am actively looking for courses that interest me. Those that remotely sound like stuff that would interest me (Yes YOU, FOOD TECH) wasn't what I thought it was at all. Some stuff are just too ambiguous and sound too similar to let you make your mind up (BSChem, ChemEng, BIOChem). And, well, some things aren't even allowed to begin with (Byebye, International Studies). So, to sum it all up, I'm still pretty undecided.

As for NIGS and Geology, though, well...hmm. I sort of now have a background on what goes on in there. I know the exciting places they go to (KL, Japan, the stuffs), but as for me, I just can't see myself as the type of person to be really interested in Geo to begin with, or to be someone who is extremely active AND willing to get his hands dirty on the field. International conferences on major global cities? Sure, why not. Hiking mountains and getting my hands (and clothes!) dirty on unpaved trails and setting out to sea on a stormy day? Eeh. 

See?

So, college course? None. Homeworks? Not even thinking of it. SSIP Portfolio? Inexistent. NIGS Scientific Paper? Half on the shelf, half working on it. That's good enough.

On a really good note though: I started writing here. Again. *smiles*

That's all for now.

Damn, I'm thirsty.